My day

I was just thinking about what my day is going to consist of, then I realized that it's pretty much the same thing everyday: get up between 6-7, start picking up mess from night before, get husband up, wait for kids to get up, husband leaves start cleaning his mess, and the new mess kids have added to. My favorite anymore is getting the check in calls from my husband they usually go like this:

 Husband: "Hi, hows it going?"

Me:"Fine."

Husband: "Well watcha doing?"

Me: "Cleaning, cooking, yelling at the big one, little one yelling at me. What are you doing?"

Husband: "Working, driving."

Me: "Thats nice." (me thinking, "thanks for stating the obvious")

Husband: "Ok love you talk to you later."

hour goes by phone rings again...

Husband: "Whatcha doing?"

Me: "Cleaning, arguing with kids."

Husband: "Ok talk to you later."

It's almost like he's expecting something magical to go on, like someone showed up and handed me a trillion dollars. It just makes me laugh, he always wonders why I don't have a lot to say, but its like the same thing everyday, I love talking to him, but I don't really deal with anyone else, and its like we'll you called an hour ago, and I'm pretty much doing the same thing I was doing when you called the first time...He's always telling me I need to change up my routine, I can't quite figure out what that means, am I supposed to change what order I clean in? There isn't much that can get changed. I guess I could clean the bathroom first thing, but then everyone goes in to do their morning "business", and that all goes to crap (pardon the pun :) ) Or I could clean the front room first, but then the kids have their breakfast and I have to vacuum twice as much as I already do. There is no way to make cleaning the house all that entertaining, I feel like that old cartoon with the bears walking around the park with those sticks picking the trash up, and its almost my whole day...My mom used to know the song that went with the bear cartoon, maybe I could sing that. Should I do it all naked, I guess someone would find that entertaining, wait nope can't do that kids don't want to watch that. I could run around and do it really fast, nope might break an ankle (if I can break it getting out of a car, I can break it cleaning house). Maybe it'll get less monotonousness when the kids get bigger. We can all hope lol.

Am I really that old?

Jeeze its been a while since I've been on here..Anyway, I had one of those moments that make you realize you're getting older, faster than you think. My husband sent me to bed at eight because it had been a really long day with the kids, so I go to bed for a while, he crawls into bed around one. I am now wide awake, tried for about an hour to get back to sleep and decided it was pointless (we're getting to the older than dirt feeling, just bear with me). I check my email, get something to drink and try to go back to bed, give him a kiss and he wakes up and is well for lack of a better term, "ready" for me. By now it's after two, we hear the little one get up, so we get her settled down..And our "midnight" rendezvous begins (more like 2:30). Anymore we dont have a lot of time for said events, so we take full advantage of the quiet house..Low and be hold it is now 4:30. Almost time for everyone to get up. We both decide to just stay up, because "we used to be able to go all night, and still function." Boy were we wrong. I have never felt so exhausted all I wanted to do was go back to bed all day, I just kept wondering how on earth I ever went all night and all day without dying somewhere. When we first got together it was (for me anyway) school all day, work most of the night, back to his place for "alone" time, sleep for like two hours (if at all), then do it all over again the next day..Now I look back and think what on earth was wrong with me! I should have been getting the sleep while I could, there is no napping anymore..Anymore we have to decide if the hour or two we want to have together is worth the 4 hours or so of sleep we'll miss. Good grief I didn't think I was going to get to that point so fast, maybe it would be better if we did that stuff on the weekend when there isn't much to do...Mid week is not a good way to go I thought I could pass for a hundred yesterday. I guess kids,house work, and work work will do that to you.

My Hubby

I learned this weekend how much my husband really means to me. There are time when he frustrates me so badly that I can't see straight, and there are times when I just rip his ears off, but he is one of the only people that really understands me. He is there when I'm upset over something that happened and isn't new news. Sometimes I just want to stay mad or sad about things that I can't fix or change, and he always finds a way to bring me back around to the present. Many times calling him a dork is a severe understatement but that is what makes him so fun. Lots of things get in the way and can cloud what's really important, but when the fog clears he's the one that is still there. If I'm cranky and he can't think of a way to fix it, I will hear the music start and he dances all crazy around the house just to get a smile out of me. I have never met someone that would do anything to make me happy. I don't always realize how much him just being there really means, even if he can't fix what the problem is. He's a unique individual with his own out look on life, but he is mine I would never trade him in for anything because with out him, who would be there to put on my fishnets and do a little dance just to see me laugh?

Family

That term family is forever definitely is not a joke. No matter how weird you think they are, or how crazy they might seem they will be the ones that show up when the times get rough no matter what. My family is pretty large when you start counting cousins, aunts, uncles, etc. Just like anyone else I have those ones that just make you shake you're head, because it always seem like their ideas are coming not just from left field but from someplace miles from the ballpark. There is also the designated crazy ones that you can tell are a few tacos short of a combo plate. But no matter how crazy, annoying, and frustrating they are never once have they failed to show up to something that was important to me. For instance my mom threw me a surprise baby shower last summer with only a few days notice, and everyone she invited showed up to see me. It brought tears to my eyes, and things like that happen in my family a lot. Sometimes you hear about an event or something and you think man I don't really want to go to that, but I have never regretted going. This is just a simple thank you to my entire family for being there for me over the years, I don't know where I would be without your support. They might be a little quirky and slightly off kilter but they're mine. And no matter what happens I know they'll help me through it if I need them too. So just because they make you crazy don't forget about all the good that comes from them too.

People

Sometimes I think about the people in my life and how they affected it, some I miss and some I don't. But just because I miss them doesn't mean they were ment to stay there forever. I've learned a lot of things about myself from some of them. Their have been people that I though meant way more to me than they really did, and it took me a long time to realize it. If I meant as much to them as they did to me wouldn't they still be here, and at least make their presence known still? There are times when things like that make it harder to let people in for fear they will at some point walk out without so much as a goodbye. There have been times I have thought "I hope you're in my life forever", but when they slowly began to faze themselves out, I decided I really didn't need them as much as I thought I did. I still think about them and miss the good times we had, and the laughs that were shared, but in the end I think it was all for the best. So at least I learned something from them even if I felt hurt and sad at least it was a learning experience. And I can now look back with a smile and a laugh, and think that I didn't lose anyone they did.

Staying at home

There are times when I'm not sure that I am cut out for this stay at home mom stuff. Sometimes all I want to do is escape the repetitive nature of it all. Then I look back at how it was when I worked all the time. They both have their good points, and both can occasionally make you want to tear your hair out. For instance when I worked all the time the house was always a wreck, we had take out almost all the time, and there by we were broker than crap. Now at least I can attempt to keep my house clean, and dinner is almost always made in our own kitchen. That does not mean I am not busy, I always love how people think you have it easy because you stay at home, those that think that have never tried it. I clean all day long, sometimes the same think 4 or 5 times a day, because every time i get it clean someone messes it up again. I don't get any alone time, and most nights I cook, clean and chase kids around the house until I drop.I do not just sit at home watching TV eating bon bons and napping (who on earth has bon bons lying around the house anyway?). Anyone that thinks staying at home would be so fun and easy should try it for a while. Its repetitive, it does not pay well, and you better enjoy cooking and cleaning. If you're a stay at home mom like me pat yourself on the back, god knows we don't get enough credit for it. For those that aren't let me know what it's like to do something that involves grown ups, I'm starting to forget what that's like.

Friendship warning

Why are there people out there who just dont realize how much you do for them? Over the years I have had so many people that I thought were such "good" friends. Only to find out as soon as I stopped benefiting them and I needed them to be there for me I was dropped like a hot rock. It seems to be a theme in my life that is just never ending. Here's a little story to chew on a bit:


 There are two people that have been friends for what feels like forever (we'll call them John and Kate), but lately it has come to the attention of Kate that John really isn't there for her as much as she is for him. Case in point, John was losing his house due to foreclosure so Kate decided John could stay with her until he could get on his feet. Then once John moved in he thought everything was free. When Kate would try to tell him she needed some help with things around the house and some of the bills John would become frustrated and bring up all the time he had helped Kate in the past. When all along there had not been much in return for all of Kate's good deeds. This is where the friendship goes from bad to worse, Kate became so frustrated with bearing all the weight of the relationship that she told john off. This had been a long time coming however and she was carrying a lot of baggage from all the times she had been worked over by her once thought dear friend john.


It has been my experience that people like john and the ilk are poisonous to anything. Point blank they will spread across every part of your life and haunt you till you finally call it quits. These "friends" have no business being apart of yours or for that matter anyone's life. There is a point where you just have to say to yourself I have given so much to be a part of this persons life and I have received less than deserved. It no longer has any benefit to me more than helping me spend extra money of fill up more room in my house. I don't need this any longer and will not be used as a door mat. I must put my foot down and stand up for myself and the time I have invested. At this point it will not come as a loss of a friend, But more of a relief from having to deal with a person who is not really returning any of the kindness you have given.

This is in no way meant to deter you from entering into friendships or for that matter going over with a fine tooth comb the ones you are in. Its simply meant to be a cautionary tale to worn those who have turned a blind eye. And a validation for those have dealt with such people.

Our night alone lol

We were down to only one kid last night, and we had all these plans for what we were going to do with our alone time. Until we realized we fell asleep on the couch at ten o'clock. It made us laugh wow look how hard core we are now. Our night alone now means hooray quiet and sleep. It kinda made me giggle though, any other night he's ready to head to "bed" as soon as the kids are laying down, and the one night there is time he falls asleep first. The night alone consisted of bad TV and snoring on the couch. Oh well guess that's the perils of parenthood. The days of up all night are over and sometimes there just isn't any logic to the things you want to do and then the things that actually happen.

The past.

Well I don't really know how to start this, but this morning my husband and I were talking about some of the things that have gone on in our past. The good the bad the horribly ugly. And I think I realized how worth it all of the stuff good and bad really was. We went through a time about five years ago while I was pregnant for our son that was really draining, and sometimes it still hits a cord when we talk about it. We ended up splitting up for a while and spending quite a bit of time apart and things happened that shouldn't have.  Even though it caused a lot of pain, the more I think about it the easier it is to see how it got us to where we are today. I was almost to the point of giving up, but I held on just a little while and the turn around began. Let me say it wasn't easy to trust or relearn how to live together again. So much has changed since then, we have another beautiful child, a nice home, he has a decent job, and we have everything we need. But if I would have given up on him during any of this we wouldn't have the amazing relationship we have now. Sometimes I wonder if I would be willing to go through it all again. But if I didn't so many good things in my life would be missing and I wouldn't give those up for anything in the world. To those of you that have gone through times in your relationship that you swear are going to break you, whether its being cheated on or being broke, or feeling alone and like the other person just cant understand what you're going through. Have a little faith and try to see what you would be missing if that person disappeared from your life all together. It might surprise you what wouldn't be there if they were gone. If I would have given up all the times I thought I wanted to I wouldn't have either of my kids or be loved as much as I am today. Just some food for thought don't let the bad stuff or the mistakes that are made block out all the reasons why you're with someone. Take it a day at a time and next thing you know you'll make it through the pain in the fog and it would have been something you can learn from. Just like it is for us now. Yes it still is painful to talk about but at the same time we learned a lot about each other and what we really do mean to one another. It makes us appreciate what we have now that much more.

What is up with men?

Just wondering why on earth do guys think sex and naked is the answer to all problems. For instance "aw you have a headache, Well you know what fixes that right? (wink wink)", I mean seriously my head is pounding so hard I think my eyeballs are going to shoot out of the sockets, lets have you lay on top of me for a while and see if that makes it feel better. Good lord, sometimes it amazes me the kids are running all over dinner is cooking and the dishes are up to the ceiling I'm sorry running to bed is just not in my thoughts.. And relationships will not totally fall apart if it's been a few days. Blue balls will not kill you, and maybe if you quit touching yourself every time you sit down maybe blue balls wouldn't be a problem. One thing that seems to elude men in general is that once you have kids morning sex is nearly non existent unless we all just quit sleeping...And if there are noises coming out of me that sound like snoring, it is not a coy invitation to try to attack me in the middle of the night. It will not get you what you want unless what you want is to deal with a very annoyed sleepy female with morning breath and night time drool stuck to her head. And just because you have to be naked to take a shower does not mean that anyone is waiting for you to come in and try to get things started through the shower door. Now dont get me wrong I like to get it on still, but it is not what I base the success of my day on when it can happen its an added bonus.....Just saying dont take offense honey lol :)

Just me and my girl!

Well so far today its just me and the girl, the boys took off this morning and its just too quiet. I feel like I'm going a little bit stir crazy I already finished cleaning the house and now it's just the waiting game. Sometimes I can't wait to have a few minutes to myself and then when I get it. I don't know what to do. It's quiet and lonely and I almost miss the chaos of having everyone home. It's like the countdown begins after the first hour they're gone. However it is nice to spend some much needed quality time with my girl, although I think she just wants quality time with anything she can find to chew on. Alas the perils of having a little one.

Same sex marriage

My husband and I were having a discussion about this the other night and we were wondering what on earth is the big deal? Really we can't figure out why people are so freaked out about it, there have been people that are attracted to the same sex since the beginning of time. Why is it such an issue if they want to get married? It's not like because the government doesn't recognize it they're going to stop being who they are. Those of you that are having a spaz about it, I would really like for you to tell me how it would impact your daily life, is it going to make the laundry, dishes or cleaning stop. Will the world stop turning because they can file their taxes jointly? I really don't think so. I mean if were going to make a big deal out of that we better start coming down on people that have threesomes because either way there is at least two of the same sex involved with that. I just wish people would get off they're soap box and just let it go. It's not like its some kind of contagious disease that becomes air born or something. Whether its legal or not it's not going to go away, and heaven forbid the country that preaches equality actually let everyone be equal. Just something for everyone to think about.

My first post!!

Well here it is, my very first ever blog post. I thought this would be a fun way to vent my stresses and opinions and to stop arguing with the vacuum! I spend a lot of my life at home with my little ones my husband is a service technician so he's gone a lot and sometimes I just need to vent. However I will warn you in advance, I can be very opinionated and am not afraid to let people know what I'm thinking. I will be posting anything from life at home and the craziness of life in general to politics religion and all that blood pumping excitement! Feel free to leave any comments you like feed back is great whether its good or bad! I hope people can have a sense of humor and don't send me anything crazy :) (also i do not need to gain any stalkers either got enough weirdos that I know thank you very much)