One day at a time

Life. It has its times when its a struggle, and then times when it looks like nothing could be better. Sometimes its harder to look at the good times because the bad times have a stronger affect. I have been though rough times that make me wonder what the point is, and sometimes they can still be sore spots. So my new goal in life is to take what I learn from those times and turn them into positive experiences. Even if things hurt, if you look hard enough you can find something to learn from. Its not always easy to look for the lessons, but that's when you need to take a step back and take stock of what's important.

Life throws you things that you aren't prepared for, and the best thing you can do is take it a day at a time. There are times when for me looking too far in the future is overwhelming, because there is no way to know if you're going to make it through all of the things that are going on. But if I change my perspective and take it a day at a time, next thing I know more time has passed than I though, and everything is still in one piece. Its not always the easiest thing to do, but taking sometime to think seems to help.

If life was easy all the time would the good times mean as much? Anything in life worth while is going to take work, and its not going to be a walk though the park. However, if it was always simple it wouldn't be nearly as entertaining. I have met people in many different situations and sometimes have wondered afterwards what the hell I was thinking, but then when I meet someone that surprises me and makes me smile it makes all the idiots worth while. Kinda like that Rascal Flatts song says "Bless this broken road that lead me straight to you." Never heard a truer thing be said.

Things in life will get you down but you have to pick yourself up and try again and again.

Life and all that comes with it..

I never really thought my life would turn out this way. I had a hard time picturing myself as a mother let alone one that stays at home. I thought I would go to college, get a career started and get married, and see where life took me. But my plan and universe's plan were totally different. I graduated high school, and went off to college, with my now husband starting college with me. The summer after our first year we got married and then pregnant with our first child in the fall. So college got put on (and still is) the back burner.

We went through ups and downs during our first year of marriage, it was a lot to handle. We took a break for a while, not really knowing if we could fix it and move on. Eventually we got everything back together and spent a lot of time mending our relationship. It was hard to just get back into the swing of things as a married couple, while living with my parents and not having any space to call our own. Everyone deciding to give their opinion and get in the middle of our problems didn't help. We moved into the first place we could afford and thought everything would fall into place. It didn't.

I got a promotion at the job I have been working at for nearly a year, and in the same token he got laid off. And then the car died, and it was like no matter what something would happen to hinder progress. Almost 8 months go by of struggling and scraping to get enough to pay the bills. Finally a light came and my husband got hired by his current company. Things were looking good, and then at the beginning of summer, I broke my ankle. So I was out of work, and we found out we were expecting our second child. We ended up back at my parents house, and everyone was constantly on edge waiting for the next bomb to drop. 

Life has taken turns I have never expected, people can surprise you more than you know. My husband is finally making it somewhere in his job, and we'll my "job" is a constant battle. Sometimes it might be hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel while always waiting for the bottom to drop out. I love where we live now, and its nice to have a place to call our own, but its getting harder and harder to make it out there. Money is tight and its hard to decide what we need to sacrifice. But I will never give up on this life, no matter how hard or hopeless it seems sometimes. I just have to keep looking for that bright spot, and keep the hope alive.